tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5089222247758430095.post3951565824548326377..comments2022-03-26T07:56:49.515-04:00Comments on Janus Professor, My Travels in a Two-Body Life: Taking the Reigns Janus Professorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01339961758398856767noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5089222247758430095.post-45276812302565617202012-10-29T23:00:43.496-04:002012-10-29T23:00:43.496-04:00Good luck.
I am sure you can get back to that -ha...Good luck. <br />I am sure you can get back to that -happier- state of mind. <br />I feel your tension. I have been there, and still am, there.<br />Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5089222247758430095.post-19524663582953439832012-10-26T12:36:28.673-04:002012-10-26T12:36:28.673-04:00I have been grappling with the same issues for the...I have been grappling with the same issues for the last few years. Right after tenure, two of my big grants were expiring and I was having a really bad year with many proposal rejections, so I was starting to think that I would run completely out of money and would not be able to continue my research program. Eventually, I got two new big single-PI grants and two collaborative ones, so I am again in very good shape... For the next 2.5 years. I know I will be in the frenzy a year or so from now, when the renewals are due again and rejections start streaming in... <br /><br />It's hard, constant rejections in our job and very few affirmations. <br />And just as you said, we have families but are not really present there for them, and why? Is this hunt for money and publications really worth it? For me, the answers is no fuckin' way. <br /><br />The way I am trying to combat this overwhelming helplessness that permeates our work days is by trying to depersonalize the work. It is after all a job -- a wonderful, creative, well paid job. I appreciate it for what it gives me intellectually but I am trying to really appreciate it for what it gives my family: money, great benefits, job security meaning them not having to move anywhere for the duration of their childhood. I am grateful I have this job, and it's not just for the intellectual aspect, which is the aspect that hurts when our ideas get rejected...<br /><br />Anyway, I feel your pain. I am also trying to make peace with the fact that perhaps I am truly mediocre and that my quest for glory is fundamentally ill-conceived. Even if so, I am still happy that I get to have this job, get to be intellectually stimulated and be my own boss, and get to provide for my family. And I go and hug and kiss my kids like there's no tomorrow, especially when a grant gets rejected. GMPhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17872461021953583473noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5089222247758430095.post-48967327155872017362012-10-26T11:41:32.471-04:002012-10-26T11:41:32.471-04:00I hear what you're saying and wish you well.
...I hear what you're saying and wish you well. <br /><br />I read your post from a few weeks back where you talked about being the kind of parent that "Takes Care of Business" (TCB) and that you found it a waste of time that people worried about how to mother properly. I felt a little uncomfortable with that, because I'm an academic and a mother and still wonder about aspects of parenting. But I now see that the TCB can in some ways be a healthy coping strategy for being overwhelmed with trying to balance everything. I just wish it was easier to blend the positive parts of being a TCB parent with the positive parts of being truly present for parenting.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com